miller is 1 month.

fastest month of my life.


ive said before, i really am trying to focus on the small stuff this time. to enjoy every moment - no matter how stressful it may seem.







i have no idea how much she weighs - our next dr appt is at 2 months.

she is still weearing newborn clothes.

loves to be worn. i put her in the babyhawk mei tei or moby almost every day -- either to get the girls from school or just while im making dinner. its a guaranteed nap.


she is usually a cluster feeder. and then she'll take a nap. sometimes she crashes wherever.


and sometimes, she has to sleep swaddled in her bedtime spot.

she sleeps in the motion glider inside the pack n play lol so its a nice incline.

her longest nap is in the afternoons after i get the girls from school - so about 3pm til 7pm or so. usually. in the mornings, she is awake a lot. and eats a lot. and naps in the car or cart while we run errands lol

she gets overtired so quickly. if you miss her window, she will cry. and cry. and then have to eat again. so my best advice to myself is to put her down and then just go in and put the paci back in if need be.


because when she is OUT, its for a while. she just isnt good at cuddling awake anymore haha - she just fusses and basically tells me "hey, im tired." so when she gets to that point, i have a minimal amount of time to get her ready for sleep.


at night, she usually goes to sleep between 8pm and 9pm. and then wakes up for the first time around 2am? sometimes i get an extra hour or so. and then she's up again at 530am or so.

at that point, i just bring her in bed with me, dream feed, and then we wake up at 730am.

breastfeeding is going well. i had/have a clogged duct that im trying to get out that hurts like hell. but overall, its going smoothly. i am super nervous about starting to have shoots again... ive been pumping to build up a nice stash that EJ can bottle feed her if need be while im gone. but im still so ::omg:: i am sure itll be fine... right? lol

miller is such a delight. really. i love when she's awake and just loves to look around. her neck is so strong and she just lifts her head up to get a better look at the world. when she smiles (gas or not - im not picky) my heart melts.

we love you, squirt. happy 1 month birthday.